When blogs go bad.

We all love the ability to hop online and let everyone know how were are feeling in no time flat. But there is times when waiting till your emotions are in check is best. There is some old saying about how friends don't let friends drink and dial, clearly a spin off of the drink and drive thing but anyway... so while I don't drink there is a similar idea here. When we are super emotional we tend to express more then we otherwise would. That's why when we have a fight we often say something we regret later.

This brings me back to blogging. Mom and I got into it pretty bad last night. I was as mad as I get. I knew I was right and she wouldn't stop getting mad at me. Without going into the details it was pretty frustrating. It got to the point that I left went to my room and shut myself in for the night. I just sat on my bed crying for like an hour. We are so close and fight so little that when we really fight it is really big.

So what does this have to do with a blog. Well, I was totally ready to hop on here and vent talking about how awful she was and how I couldn't stand being in this house (which is a total lie). But better thinking took over and I decided to just go to bed. When I got up this morning I didn't know where things were at. I had tried to talk normally to her three times last night and they all ended badly. With that I was a little uneasy even going to say good morning. After a while I stuck my head out and when she saw me she said good morning like nothing had happened the night before. It took a little big but after a while she apologized for over reacting. I was suddenly very glad I had not publicly trashed her. The truth is things like blogs quite often get us at our worst and aren't always that true. It is important when we are are making things public as we do when we blog that we really think about what we are saying. It can be therapeutic to get things off our chest through writing them down but it can also leave us with regrets that while they maybe able to be deleted were out there none the less.

Well, I do need to get to bed. Mom and I are going shopping tomorrow (we get over things pretty fast most of the time) so I need to get some sleep.
Love to all

Happy Lucky Valentines Day

So this will be a short one because I am already yawning but I just wanted to leave a quicky.

I was talking to mom today and was saying how lucky it was that Valentines day was on Saturday this year so most people could have the whole day off (unless your my dad of course). However I then thought of something, to have the luck of having a Saturday valentines date you have to have a Friday the 13th, a date known for being unlucky. Just kinda interesting to me. That is once you get past the fact that I don't buy into all that crap lol.

Well, I need some sleep, I have a ton of work to do tomarrow and I haven't been doing so well lately, ok, just one test but it really bugs me.

Later

ok, today there might be nothing to say. But we'll see.

I don't know what I am going to end up talking about in this one. I just really want to start blogging more. I feel a little more in touch this way. Not just with everyone else but with me too. I just like to see what I am going to say. I helps give me insight into what is important to me sometimes, then again sometimes it is just my place to vent of complain. That should change, I mean I am not by any means an unhappy person but many would probably think so by reading my blogs. They tend to come when I am in a bad mood or stressed. I use them to reduce stress true but I think they should be about the good stuff too.

So any way I officially have my first test today. Online but still its a test. I am not dreading it, in fact I feel pretty good about it up to this point anyway. We will see once I have actually taken it. All and all now that I finally have all my books in this semester is going pretty good. I can say that because up to this point I haven't had anything real hard to face. That is about to change as I have a test this week, next week, and then at least 3 the week of march 8th. The good thing about this is that while right now I am a little overwhelmed by the upcoming work it does seem to go by fast. I mean there is no way I feel like I am in my fourth week of school but I am. That means it is already 25% over by the end of this week. I like that I like knowing that I made it through up to this point so I only have 3 more of those to go, those being chunks of time. I don't know if I am going to take my last two classes in the fall for try to take them this summer. It seems like I should be able to do it in the summer as it would only be a combined 4 credit hours but then about I have heard nasty things about this SAD (system analysis and design).

So as you may know already we have been getting quite a bit of snow up here. It is frustrating when we have to go somewhere and the roads are bad but when I am home and inside the warm house I love it. I wanted to build a snowman but it was too dry and wouldn't hold together. I also wanted to throw a snow ball at mom but she gave me a look so I didn't lol.

Anyway I am happy to have gotten some snow this winter but I am also kind of ready to see it go being that it happened two weeks in a row on my class day. I had to miss class last week because of it and this week dad took me which was nice. I had to chill for about 3 hours before it started but it gave me lots of time to get my reading done. Now I just have two more chapters this week and then of course all the homework and the test. I hope to get most of that done today so I can relax this weekend. I loved last weekend. Mom and I got up and went to church on Sunday then came home and got dad, went to UNOs for pizza and then came home and slept if off :)
Then we got up and ran out to pick up some things for the super bowl snacks and got home just in time to fix them and enjoy the game. It was a bit of a bummer as we were all hoping for the cards to take it but since that colts weren't in it there wasn't quite the same disappointment when they lost.



Ok, I need to get going but this was fun. I need to remeber to pop over here more. I let you know how the test went and talk to ya later.